My New Life Without You

Sound like I would build my new life after broke up with my lovely one. yeah!
that's right!
Just wanna share about my feeling after a long time I didn't write anything in my blog and now, I'm back..
I don't know why I'm sad..
I just want to stop this, I know things are going to be better but I don’t know what to do….
I’m stupid to try to make people feel better and I’m not OK…but sometimes it’sn I forget that I’m not okay and I get excited to make people feel better, but I know that everything is wrong with me :(
Yeah Mom, maybe you're true.. I must stop thinking about that **** guy!!!!!!
he doesn't care about my feeling.. I hate myself for liking him and not being able to control myself even when I knew that he doesn't care about me.
I tried to forgive and forget but I honestly didn't.. why??
because my heart was really hurt with what he did to me..
I really don't understand, he try to pretend like nothing happen..
As I walk through my new life. The thought of being alone saddens me. But it's not important to me anymore..
After this,I'm gonna stop thinking all about you..Even I know it's hard for me..But I'll try my best because I know, I can do it.. Even it will take a long time.. how long???????????? Only God knows that..